So you know what's weird? My whole high school career has been geared toward college. Take that AP course it will look good in college and you won't have to take it. Keep your grades high or you won't get into college. Take a language you hate for 5 years so you can get out of it in college and so it looks like you're dedicated. Join that club for community service, so you look well-rounded. Do a sport for an excessively long time, even though you're not that into it, so it helps make you well-rounded. These are things I've heard and lived by for the past 2-3 years of my high school career. Now March will be rolling around soon and I'm getting hordes of e-mails from colleges that I've never heard of. Ever. In places I've never heard of. Ever. Like, really Mercer University or Hoftsra University? I really never knew there were so many colleges. Also, I'll admit ok, it's nice to recieve this stuff even as Junior becuase I know what's out there. It shows that maybe all that work I'm doing now, all the stress, all the APs will actually pay off.
I've enjoyed looking at some of these colleges sites seeing what they offer and all that and it's a little bit exciting, along with scary. Anyways all this college stuff would be all fine and dandy if I knew what the hell I wanted to do with my life! Sadly, I don't. I have no idea what I want to major in or what I want to do with my life for a career. So as I look at these colleges and look at what they offer I don't know what to seriously look at because really I don't know what I want to do. So how will I know if that college will be right for me a year from now? That's the most stressful part of this.
My mom has been on me about choosing a major and deciding what I want to do all of my junior year so far. For the most part so far I've brushed her off. I was way too busy with school and swimming and the things going on in my life right now to worry about college in two years. Well...now it's 2009, one year till I graduate, I'm recieving college e-mails and things in the mail from them, and I still don't know what I'm going to do. So I'm a little worried, I know I shouldn't be ya know? Eventually I will figure it out; I will make a decision. Or I could go to college undecided a lot of people do that nowadays. However, I hate the idea of going to college undecided because it's a lot of money to go to college. Money I don't have, money my parents can barely afford. I don't want to waste any money if I'm still not going to know what I want to do in 4 years after all that work. *sigh* So do we see my problem? So I don't know. For now I'm focusing on getting through school and passing the SATs.
I can't believe it's all ready February only four more months of school. Four more months of my junior year. I can't believe it's passing so fast. Heh, okay. I feel better now that I let this all out. No one has to actually read this. It's just me working out my thoughts. Anyways, hopefully Inkdeath review will be up in like 2 weeks! (I'm only in the 200s out of 660). Heh so bye!
-She Who Reads A Lot
